原本对它没有什么感觉的,但最近我的生活中也出现了类似所谓"第三者"的分子,所以很想清楚的知道什么才是真正的第三者.

一直以来,我都告诉自己我是幸福的,这样维持了二十几年,但最近忽然想想自己这一路走来,真的感觉酸楚. 也许是由于长大的原因,也许是之前太过于依赖他的原因,现在觉得一个人很无助. 一直安静的忍受着离开他的寂寞和伤痛,自己一个人去到异国他乡学习(其实是为了逃避和他的世界),几年后回到故土,但已经有种说不出的陌生了. 还是一个人继续着这样工作和生活.来到这个陌生的城市,随波逐流似的强颜欢笑. 陌生的感觉始终笼罩在我的头上,有时会觉得可笑,但更多的是可怕.

这种突如其来的感伤,占据了我原本"幸福似的"生活,破坏了原本别人羡慕的生活.这算是第三者吗? 也许吧.因为第三者都是被人唾弃的.

何时这位第三者能离开我呢?我想回到属于我的"幸福似的"生活.尽管是孤独的,但起码能让我觉得幸福. 我不要这种痛苦的生活.回到故土,但这种陌生让我觉得害怕. 我想离开,但不知道该何去何从? 回到异国他乡?那里毕竟是别人的领土,我始终是外来人,长期在那里会不会更害怕??

身边的好友都有自己的家,也不好打扰他们.他们也没有时间给我. 而家人在另外的城市,毕竟每个人的生活和工作不一样,总是不能那么轻易的兼容. 更何况家人老是逼问我的个人问题,更是让我觉得烦心. 不想象我的朋友们那么早就结束自由,但面对他们的质问,我总是觉得很尴尬. 毕竟是我的家人,所以有时很难跟他们说我的想法.更何况他们都是老一辈的人,根本无法理解我的想法.

可是现在还真的觉得--似乎现在也该真的找一个了,这样两个人互相照顾也不错. 至少不会觉得孤单.

都不知道自己写了些什么,乱写一些吧,因为我现在脑子里问题多多,需要的答案也多...

What kind of activity you will have? And maybe a party right? I am going to have a party with some of my friends tonight. Wow...Fantastic!!!

Does any one know the story of Lantern's Day? I was been told before,but now forget. And want to recall it again. Anybody can tell me? Thanks in advance!

I am very busy the whole day,but want to send me best wishes to everyone,and want to share the happiness from the lucky festival. So much for now. If anybody tell me the story,I will be back soon.

Bye for now---

I am so lucky to get such a new plat for myself in this new exciting year!! So I will have a RELAXIOUS place to fly my words!!! So lucky lucky!!!

Ok,new year brings me new dream for sure! I am going to set up a company by myself in the next couple of year starting from 2008. In this case,I will have my own business for real. And this is what I dreamed a long time ago actually.

Second is-

I am going to have a ROMANTIC meeting with someone who is the real man in my life. I am going to fall in love with a good man(even he is not coming to my life so far). I am waiting for him all along,and hopefully he is coming soon.

Third dream is-

I hope that all the people around the world will be HEALTHY,HAPPY and PEACEFUL! No diseases any more,no sorrows and no wars any more.

So much for now. At last-

I hope that my BLOG will be growing better and better!!!